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Name: Jessi
Country: United States
State: South Carolina
Metro: Greenville
Birthday: 3/30/1987
Gender: Female


Interests: Becoming more like Jesus , music , reading , chillen like a villian with family and friends, all the normal good stuff , teaching the world to sing in perfect harmony!
Expertise: making crowns out of pipe cleaner, changin diapers, making people laugh and not knowing
Occupation: Student
Industry: Nonprofit


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Member Since: 12/9/2005

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Sunday, March 30, 2008

I AM ENGAGED

I am getting hitched to the most wonderful man in the world!


Friday, March 28, 2008

Mom and Lung Cancer

I've probably spent the good part of the night crying about different things...why I am blogging about it because some of you know and love the one that I am crying about. No it's not kris. It's mom. She has already had been through and beaten two different types of cancer. As of recently the doctors think she may have lung cancer. For the past couple of days I think i been in stunned. Tonight it set it...my mom could not be here for that much longer. I have been praying so hard that they are just lumps and that her smoking since she was 14 won't effect her. But to realize that the woman who raised you could be gone in as little as a few months. I don't care if you think it's bad of me to cry "because God is in control." I know he is and I know that if my mom does have lung cancer she will be with him forever...it's just me being selfish I want her here. I want her to be the first one I hug when I actually make it through college. I want her to help me plan my wedding, come to evey shower and be more proud of her soon to be son in law then me (joke). I want her on the front row and I want to shag with her to a song that I have had picked out for years for us to dance to. I want her to hold her first real grand child...my child I want them to know what it is like to have a wonderful crazy grandmother who will give them the world and spoil their heart out. I can't imagine her not being there for those moments and the fact that I might have to breaks my heart into a thousand pieces. Pray for mom its hard on her she doesn't tell me much she never has. I didn't know about her having cancer twice before until I was in high school. She has always been my rock. Roles are reversed I am the rock and as of tonight not that great of one ! I pray it's not lung cancer and if its not I will have a deeper apperication for my mom. I love my dad but I have to say I think he trigged the out of shock experince tonight...it's kind of commical in a very twisted and probably un funny way....but he came into and was like "i talked to this guy and I haven't talked to him for a long time...maybe I shouln't tell you this (come one dad what was it....me thinking it some gossip or something) well his brother died not to long ago of lung cancer"...i said thanks dad and went about helping him do that dishes.

Pray for MOM


Thursday, March 27, 2008

Random and a sense of belonging

So today was an artistic day. Not in the sense that all of a sudden I can now turn my stick figures into Van Gogh.It was weird I just had artistic moments.

 It started today walking to class and I was walking into the wind. I felt a sense of exhilaration. I don't know if exhilaration can be a "sense" or a snip it of your life, but it was in mine today. I was walking into the wind just me (and Jesus). There I was walking into the "wind" of life. I was taking on many different things, bills, money issues, mom and her struggles with cancer, relationship troubles, which parent to stay with, and so much more. The wind subsided and I looked around at the "beautiful" that was all round me. I stood in the middle of a one way street already late to class and just stopped. I did nothing but look around, it seemed like an eternity, but it was only a moment a moment that i want to be with me for the rest of my life. The fact that I took on the wind and when all was said and done it was beautiful. 

After two classes and a walk up the hills of NGU I made it to my car and set off on Camp Creek. I drove windows down sun roof open and the radio as loud as it would go. I looked in my rear view mirror and saw no one not another car, nothing but beautiful. At this point in time a sad song came on the radio, it made me think of all that is going on in my life right now- not that my life is sad but there are a few aspects that do make me sad when I tend to think upon them-. I quickly turned the song and the beatles "HELP" was on the radio.  I thought more on how we like Christians- or it could totally be me that's cool too- we walk down a beautiful road everything is going great and something sad comes along, another sad thing comes along, and another and another, but we can't let anyone know, we can't let anyone see that we are said so we quickly change the song.  sometimes when we are sad we ask for help and it seems like no one is there.   At the end of camp creek there is a stop sign... there i turn to see friendly country faces smiling and waving as I pass and  they help.


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I AM ABOUT TO BE 21 THAT IS CRAZY


Sunday, March 23, 2008

Spring is great

I miss my niece, my sister, my brother, and my brother in law!
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i know she is the cutest!

I AM ABOUT TO BE 21 and it's crazy to be that old


Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Ode to flip flops ( yeah this is for a grade haha)

Ode to Flip Flops

You’re my favorite.
If it is above 40 degrees I wear you. outside

I have you in many different colors and sizes.
When I was young I used to wear you with toes socks
And I looked a mess.
But thanks to you my feet get rest.

My rainbows are brown.
I wear them all year a round.

When I go the beach I pack you and you alone.
We walk on the sand and we do not want to go back home.

You have been my friend through thick in thin.
We go way back when,

We have gotten in trouble at school.
Oh those stupid no flip flop rules.

But I stuck by you when administration did not want me wearing you.
I wore you in an ice storm, but I stood by you, or was it you standing with me?

Thank you for always making my gray days feel better,
Because when I put you on I know that it is soon to be great weather.
Friend you are my favorite, and you always keep me looking summery all year around.

Thank you friend
Thank you!




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